Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Life is Seldom What You Plan

That quote keeps coming to mind these days as life is changing all around me. It is so simple yet so true. Much has happened since my last post. I found another job in Atlanta working for a family as a live in housekeeper/nanny... which was going to be such a great opportunity.

But after speaking with my grandmother this weekend and seeing how much the circumstances have changed back in Birmingham and how in need of me she was, I decided to make a tough decision and move back home. I wrestled so hard with it all weekend as I am just getting settled here in Atlanta and had a great job opportunity open up, but felt that God has given me a responsibility to take care of right now and that is my grandmother. His word tells us that as children we are to take care of our family, widows and orphans... and that is an undeniable responsibility that I need to fulfill right now.

I would be lying if I said it was as easy as that to make a decision. It was a very hard weekend to say the least. I have never felt so torn and I know I put a lot of people through a lot of emotional roller coasters... you know who you are and I am so sorry. I definitely felt called to Atlanta back in October and took a step of faith and came. But it is a new season now and God has a new plan for me and His plans are always good. I have to stand on that.

So for those of you who I met along the way in Atlanta, please know that I love you all and you mean the world to me. My PCC family was just starting to feel like a real community. I am so excited for all of you and can't wait to see God work in you and through you in the coming days of Passion City Church. It breaks my heart to think I will not be here, but He knows best. My heart is with you guys... don't stop believing in great things! They are coming! I can feel it! And who knows... maybe and hopefully I will join back up with you guys...

So Birmingham I will see you in a few. I have missed you.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

And back to square uno

For those 2 of you who read my blog you probably know that God provided an awesome job for me being a home manager for a family in Atlanta! I had recently been re-evaluating and praying hard about whether God wanted me to stay in Atlanta and just asked that if He wanted me to stay, that He would provide a job for me... and He pretty much laid one in my lap that week! The way He worked out the details just blew my mind and was clear evidence that He wanted me to stay.

Yesterday I received and email from the family saying that Kim, the wife, lost her job on Friday and that they didn't think they were going to be able to hire me anymore. Talk about disappointing! I will get a definite yes or no from them tomorrow after Kim goes into the office and finds out about relocation. I must say it doesn't look hopeful.

All that to say please pray for me if you get a chance. I need direction. Very badly! I also need some open doors... and quick! I know that God provided that job for me and I have no idea why He took it away, but it's not my job to figure out the plan of God... I'm just here to walk through the doors He opens. I know He has something better He wants me to do... and I am beyond excited to find out what that may be!

BUT

that very well may mean moving back to Birmingham. Which is a bitter-sweet thought and something that I just don't think is what I am supposed to do! I feel very called to Atlanta and have had that calling confirmed many times... so I'm just praying for His will to be done and whatever that means I know He will give me the strength to do it!

I appreciate your prayers so very much! They are felt trust me. He is in control and I am resting in that!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Hello 2010

Wow. I don't even know if I will be able to put into words how full my heart is right now.
Passion 2010 came and went...It all feels like a bit of a blur to me right now.
I didn't get to see much of any of the sessions, but one line from a song sung by Chris Tomlin keeps running through my mind right now:

And if our God is for us then who could ever stop us! If our God is with us then what can stand against!

What an awesome anthem for 22,000 college students to be carrying around in their hearts right now as they go back to the "real world". I remember as an attendee that was the hardest part for me. Going back to the real world. I learned so much and then had to go back and live it... it's not easy!

I think one of the coolest parts of a Passion Conference is Do Something Now. Do Something Now is an area set aside for students to explore ways that they can be involved in bringing justice to people all around the world who are suffering from everything from hunger, lack of water, sex trafficking, and much much more.

Are you ready to be blown away?

These 22,000 POOR college students gave $668,597.95 (and counting)..WHAT! Then a couple in the crowd matched that with another $668,597.95!!!

That is over 1 million dollars going out from the pockets of students and leaders to people all across the world who will now see the hands and feet of Jesus meet physical needs that have crippled their lives!

I don't know about you but I am pretty positive that I have never been so blown away and humbled in all of my life!

So you want to know what I've been up to and what all this #passion 2010 stuff that I've been twittering and facebooking for the past week is. It is not about the cool production elements (which were really cool by the way). OR the awesome design of the Go Center (which was completely amazing) OR the artist (even though they are all really awesome) Or Louie, Beth, Piper or Francis.

BUT it is about the Glory of God. The glory of God brought to life in students lives as they see that God is not all about them but God is all about God and in that we can have complete joy! The glory of God seen in the fact that students sacrificed more than we will ever know so that people around the world can now have $1 million to help them get out of a pit they thought they were going to die in. The Glory of God seen in the life of the student who came with a friend, clueless to what they were getting in to and are now a child of God by His grace.

That is what Passion is about. It's about Him.
There is so much more I could say, but since I tend to like to tell stories via photos I will let these tell the rest:
268generation.com/blog

And at the name of Jesus every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord to the glory of God the Father!